STUCK.
I didn’t think I was stuck.
That’s not how I would describe me.
And then I read this:
Women are hurting. A lot of us feel stuck. This is not a novel perception- this is human. We are stuck trying to be perfect. Stuck in sadness. Stuck feeling numb. Stuck pursuing more stuff to make us happy. Stuck in something we can’t even name. And most of our stuck places are invisible to the world. Which keeps us from dealing with them.
Hm. That actually sounds familiar.
I have hurts. I feel sadness and sometimes numb. I want more stuff thinking itll make me happy even though I know it really won’t. I am smarter than all of this. And yet, here I am. Stuck. In stuff. In brokenness. In anger. In a battle with weight. In parenting. In body image. In self worth. Stuck In so many places. Maybe too many to name. And I really didn’t even know it.
I don’t want people to know how I struggle in certain areas.
For goodness sake. Everyone knows I am not perfect, but can’t I at least try to keep it together in a few areas. Like maybe if I just lost this one year old baby weight I would feel better and people would think I am so disciplined. Or maybe if I could get a little self control and follow a dadgum budget, I could make my husband so proud. Or maybe if my kiddos could sit at the table through an entire meal I could keep my cool a little better. I don’t know. This list could go on. There are so many thing that have me held captive. And why? I have no captor. When I gave Jesus the reign over my life, sin lost its power. It has no grip on me. And yet, here I stand. Allowing sin to overtake what does not belong to it.
Y’all I am sruggling here. Its not an everyday, all day struggle.
It’s more of an undertone. A heart issue.
A grip on my heart that is keeping me from doing really great things for the Kingdom of God.
Am I alone here? Anyone else STUCK?
I am doing this study ironically called STUCK with some friends right now and it’s refreshing to talk about these things things with them. We thought you’d enjoy one.
ENTER TO WIN A COPY OF STUCK
Devotional study by Jennie Allen
just let me know if you’re also stuck
one winner will be drawn
Update August 4: Lindsay was our winner! Congrats!