Isn’t so easy to see other’s faults?
I can so easily pinpoint another person’s main struggle and issue. And, boy I wish I could just MAKE them grab a hold of it and fix it. Similar to those in addiction, their lives are just not going to change until THEY take a step of ownership about the problem and they take a step toward recovery.
Hello, my name is Courtney and I see what you’ve been seeing. I am crazy bonkers busy busy busy and the bomb finally dropped.
I am not sure if it was the ER trip over the business trip or the nonstop headaches since that time or the 14 things I missed or cancelled but I finally said, ENOUGH.
There are a couple truths.
- I am way hard on myself
- I am naturally a super busy, way capable, super motivated person – so taking it ALL off won’t work for me
- Every woman and man in America struggles with balance
- I will always have a history of migraines because of my family history but a couple a month is different than every day
- I have insanely huge heart to help and love and serve which is a strength and can also have some side effects
I am sharing with you because I don’t ever want my activities to be some model for motherhood. I say do less, do less, do less. When your kids are young – and home – even though you feel like you’re trapped and accomplishing not much. Be there. And fight the urge to do more because you might often get in over your head.
However, if you have prayed and feel God has absolutely called you to a new ministry or job – say YES, with boundaries. I have made the mistake of adding things that were “good” and not “great.” Or maybe not the very best. Or maybe not the best for this very season. I may have confused Godly things with God’s will for me personally.
I’m not the first blogger to have a little meltdown. I’m truly OK. Swear. Courtney Joseph took a break. Jen Hatmaker just said enough.
My counselor this week said it best, “you are so busy caring so deeply for others – that you are spending NO time caring for yourself.”
It feels so selfish because I truly DO LOVE putting you and my friends and my kids above me. Then, me and Ron get squat.
So, I will report back with my plan. Right now, it looks like doctors appointments, canceling a lot, reevaluating a lot, sleeping way more, closing computers and phones and having some tough conversations with myself.
I read this book in two hours last night. It was seriously perfect timing. I just finished the series Breathing Room by Andy Stanley and it was also perfect timing.
I finished writing my book this weekend and will turn it in this week (and then edits start). I do NOT feel that book is by any means a project I added just to add. THAT ONE – I truly prayed about and felt it was an act of obedience. I am more than excited about that coming out and how it will serve and encourage moms in their journey to bring faith to life in the home. I’m so so honored to have worked through the stress of that task.
Now, there are some others that I heap on myself for “fun” that are coming off.
Stay tuned. Hoping you smart mommas that already do this are getting a good chuckle because a train wreck can always be seen coming… very slowly. 🙂
Courage For Teens